All that stuff you leave behind

Sometimes in life new and exciting stuff can happen, but what if your imagination runs wild with your life. What if your expectations are too high? How are you going to get your expectations down? How would you stop your self in getting them too high in the first place? Sometimes you just have to set your goals lower. For example when you have done an exam you can’t expect to get an A but just think that you’ll get a B so that if you get a B you don’t get too disappointed. Stop having so high expectations to yourself because you will get nothing but disappointed. You can’t expect to start at the top you need to work your way up the ladder. It really annoys me when people have way to big expectations to themselves. Just think about those poor kids whose parents have the greatest expectations to them, they don’t do anything but disappoint. Great expectations can’t only be about grades but also holidays or friends. You might always be nice to the new girl in the class who just sits all alone in the corner. She can seem nice and you become close, but in reality she doesn’t really care much about anything. She only cares about herself, you have just become a puzzle piece in her way to popularity. I’m not saying that all people are like this but 1/10 of all new kids are like that. Also everytime you go on holiday you think everything is going to be so amazing and great. When you finally get there it might not be exactly as you imagined. You could become really disappointed in what it turns out as.

Love comes from your heart ,Thoughts come from your head,Life comes from whatever you give.

Just because you say it’s ‘okay’ doesn’t make it okay

Remember just because you’re rewarded doesn’t mean you need to stop trying.

The people you will remember are people who made a change in your life.

YOu don’t really realize how much someone or something means to you before they’re/it’s gone. I never realized how much someone filled my life before they disappeared. It’s been almost a year since i’ve talked to this person and i realizes the other day how much i miss this person. They were my best friend and meant alot to me but then one day we had a huge fight and since that day we couldn’t stand eachother. I haven’t said a word to this person ever since that day i feel terrible for not doing nothing but there isn’t much to do when somebody locks you out of their life. The worst thing is that i don’t know what to do for this person to come back into my life!?

You don’t realize how much you hurt other people when you come with a silly comment. Sometimes you might say something for fun but other people could take it personal, for example i have this friend who i sometimes, as a joke, say something mean about. They always take it too personal and i end up hurting that person which wasn’t my intentions at all, and it really makes me sad to make my friends sad because i really care about this person. Sometimes i wish i thought more about what i say, because sometimes i really end up hurting people.

What if, life had no responsibilities, no worries, no nothing?

What if, we were to live without love?

What if, i could be happy forever after?

What if, everything would be allright?

What if, you were by my side all day long?

What if, we could erase all bad memories and only leave good behind?

What if, everyone were equal?

What if, everyone behaved in the same way?

What if, you could see straight through me?

What if, i had never met you?

What if, i would right now?

What if, I never see you again?

What if, summer was as cold as winter?

You can feel pain in alot of diffrent ways for example I’ve had really bad stomach aches for 5 months now. They come suddenly and un excpected it feels like something inside of me is breaking or something is eating of me from the inside. It’s the most unconfortable feeling you can imagine, I turn completly white and i can’t breath probally. What’s wrong I really don’t know but what I know, is that something is terribly wrong! Another pain I’ve been feeling alot is the pain of loosing someone close to you, this year already I’ve lost alot of people who meant something to me both because they died or just because they moved. But you’ve probally all had that when you are really close to someone and suddenly they’re just not there anymore. GONE!FOREVER! With only the last words, goodbye. I hate it, that’s probally one of the only things that can make me cry loosing people close to me, that’s my soft spot! Another pain is when someone gets mad at you. My dad had a period where he yelled at me all the time, he would throw me into my room yelling at me over nothing and for hours I would lay screaming like the devil had taken. I hated when my life was like that. But people couldn’t see it, so they didn’t think anything was wrong. I would just smile and be happy hide my sadness and pain behind jokes.

I’ve got very hard taking people in under my skin, most people don’t get to see sides of me that my closets friends and family do. Most people only see the happy and goffy me but what they don’t see is the crying girl sitting there deep inside my soul crying and feeling more pain than most people. Well luckly most of the pain’s gone now but there’s still sadness and pain deep down under my perfectly normal smile.

I don’t get it how can people change so much in such a short time! You think you know someone but actually they have another layer of personality under the one you got to know it’s very confussing. People who’ve meant so much to you, how can they just walk away like nothing ever happend. It’s unfair that you spend years getting to know someone, but then suddenly they totally change. Sometimes to the better and sometimes to the worse. I had this really good friend but suddenly she began seeing theses other girls and suddenly she was totally diffrent when she was with them i didn’t know her anymore! But then when we were alone or with some of her other friends she was the old her that i just to know.

Last week I went fishing. It’s amazing how wonderful it is just to sit there and on the water in a little boat físhing. It’s the best pherapi you could get, it’s just so relaxing. I could spent hours fishing, it’s nothing else than you and the water. I would really advise you to go fishing!

The bad side of it is though that fish are dieing out, there’s less and less. Most people esat alot of fish and if this keep being like that there aren’t going to be any fish left for the next generation! I personally think that it should only be fair to catch a special amount every year.

Peace of the mind

Everything is silent. Nothing moves. Nobody carries heavy thoughts in their head. The only noise is the leaves on the trees clapping together like small children hands, birds singing and animals stamping through the forest. The trees grow all the way to the sky like skyscrapers. They wave gently slowly from side to side carefully in the same rhythm. Everyone is ready to go. They are standing in a small room with four windows one on each side of the white wall. There is a glass door that goes out to the forest outside the tiny room which is smaller than the windows that are like massive big mirrors. The Korean flag is proudly hanging on the wall in its beautiful black, white, red and blue colours which mix perfectly. It is rough and  made of cotton. Her purpose in life is to be the master of freedom and respect, her clothes are white, her black belt shines in the early morning sun. Her hair is tied tightly in a pony tail on the back of her head. Her thought doesn’t run all the way around the world, but stays in one place. She’s relaxed, everything would get destroyed if just a little sound from a mobile phone came. All the stress would came back to her. Everything was so peace full, that you could hear every sound 1000 km away. Her flexibility powers makes her skilled to do things she wouldn’t  be able to do if she wasn’t doing Tae Kwon Do. Tae Kwon Do is a great way to relive stress, it also has a  proud history, and it has belts in different colours.

Tae Kwon Do has a very interesting history. Tae Kwon Do is a sport the idea came from other similar sports judo and karate.His name is Choi Hong Hi; he is Korean. Years ago when it started it was called Tae Kwon Do  today it’s still called by its original name. Tae Kwon Do also has a meaning Tae means to Kick or to Smash, Kwon means Punching or destroying and Do means Way or Method. It’s simply a physical fighting skill. It today is a material art form that combines from many material art forms, from Korea and surrounding countries 2,000 years back. The earliest know use of is about 50 B.C so this a long know sport. Since is so old you truly don’t know how they actually practised it in 50 B.C. That’s why you will find that they teach it differently some places, but most places do the same things, so it wont make any confusion.

Tae Kwon Do has many different styles of clothing; different coloured belts. The belts have different colours, the are uniform different shapes.The clothing is white for most teams although you can also get it in black, blue and red which represent the colours of the Korean flag. Likewise the belts have different meanings because you will be able to do different things, the belts shows which level you are at, with each of these belts it is not all easy.The belt has a rough texture similarly the clothing is not soft but rough. The helmet is either red or blue, a vest to protect your upper body which is also red and blue like the helmet. The cloths you wear are white, it it has long sleeves and has a V cut in the opening, but some of the tops are different you can also have one you tie at the side. All the tops have the V cut,even though the V cut hasn’t always been about. The trousers are white and long they have an elastic band at the top so they don’t fall down, the shirt hangs down over the trousers with the belt tight fitting on the stomach. It is for your own good and is to protect yourself from getting hurt so don’t think of it as an embarrassing thing because it’s not your only protecting yourself from getting hurt by someone else while figthing, because the things you do are quit dangerous for example the kicks you do aren’t all safe to practise with people standing near by you the kicks are high and powerful so be thoughtful. The first belt you get is white, this belt you don’t learn a poomse but defence and kicks, the next one is yellow, this belt you learn a poomse which is a series of kicks and defence, after yellow there is green, you learn a new kick and a poomse, then comes blue one, learn a new kick and a poomse, after that is of course blue two, there you also learn a new kick and a poomse, after is brown, here you also learn a new kick and a poomse, after brown is red one, a new kick and poomse, after is red two, that is only a poomse, then after that is red three, thats also only poomse, after is the black belt that goes all the way up to 10th so that’s a lot of belts, the poomses just get harder and harder the higher the belt you get. The poomse is a series of kicks, defence and hits.

Tae Kwon Do is a advantage to relive stress.  You won’t give anything away you want to keep it. It feels nice to be relived from everything nasty in your mind. Your stressful life will lay behind you as a dark coat in the dark evening sky over us at night. Your anger that is caused by your boss yelling at work is being pulled out of your body slowly minute after minute. By the time your finish you could actually forgive him for his evil behavior that made every one crawl up into their little mouse wholes and cry. You’re just so lucky to be here at this very moment and get that horrible anger and stress out of the body. That use to be a joyful always smiling and nice to other people. Finally for a long time you are the old you that you’ve missed so much these past 3 years. In Tae Kwon Do you get the anger out of your body by hitting and kicking things like the targets they use, it also helps by the meditating to relive stress and anger by not thinking of anything.

Lots of people say the world is ending in 2012, even if it is we can still try to save ourselfs. The only ones on planet Earth that can do something to truly turn the thing around is humans. We’ve been destroying this planet for years and we keep doing it. We humans don’t have a limit or at least some people don’t they keep beeing bad to the enviroment they keep eating meat they just won’t change even if it depends on our lives. I started reading this book about a girl in the future they had to cut down on everything! They didn’t die in 2012 but there was a huge storm which wasn’t very nice. We can maybe just maybe stop this from happening if we do something now! Not tomorrow or the day after but at this very moment, if we don’t stop doing the things we do the planet Earth hasn’t got a future. No I’m not kiding, I’m speaking the truth out planet is in big danger. We got this planet because we were intrusted to take good care of it but we did the opposite, we destroyed it ruined it, killed the animals, cut down all the trees, builded big factories where there should have been big green areas. Make a change today and live your life happiely ever after.

I’ve become a vegetarien my self, I got to think about when i say that I’ve become one because of the way they treat animals people always reply back that they agree. The thing that made me think is if everyone thinks it’s bad for animals why don’t we all become vegetariens? Some people say they can’t live without meat but they don’t actually know, you can’t know if can something before you tried it. If everyone became vegetariens then we wouldn’t have to treat animals the way we do, there are lots of things that would be reduces in the form of treating animals badly. When I tell people I don’t eat eggs they look like a big question mark, I’ve explained to people so many times that i don’t think it’s fair to put chickens in cages the size of a kitchen sink. Or let 1000 of chickens walk around a room the size of a bedroom.

People put animals into diffrent catorgories: The ones we don’t mind eating and The ones we would never eat. Where I come from eating a dog is not legal but in China you can get dog in resturants, in some places they eat shark some places it’s discusting. If all the way back to the start of the human race they only eat fruit and vegs, if that had kept going we’ld never have thought of slaughtering animals but since it’s just human nature to do that sort of thing it’s become natural to us.

Next time you go to the supermarket think of if you could make a great dinner without meat or fish? It can make a huge life change for animals.